CP still lives in me!
This past friday I took a bad fall during soccer practice and tore my knee up. I went in to the physical trainer and I found out that I've torn my MCL and possibly my ACL as well. My soccer season is over for this year. Tomorrow I'm headed to a sports doctor to get X-rays and MRI's and whatnot, but that's tomorrow. If it's my MCL, no surgery, just rest. If it's both - first I have to let the MCL heal, then a surgery to repair my ACL and then ~6 months of therapy to heal from that. Woot woot :(
But in all of this, I am joy filled and I have such a beautiful peace that God is way in control, even though I have no idea how much this is going to affect the rest of my semester and even next year. I learned something at CP this summer, something I didn't realize I had learned until now - I can have joy right now without understanding and I can LOVE WHERE I AM AT!
I'm not saying I'm happy about my knee - Oh contrare!!!! But I've never had to be still for such long periods of time, feeling so restless and shackled, and now I can experience a different relationship with God where he really is my friend and I can talk to Him uninterrupted. I LOVE this time where I can be still and know that He is God - it's so much easier and more natural for me in the wilderness but on campus during classes there are distractions that have divided my heart!
But God is faithful, and I pray that He will continue to use this old knee of mine for good, especially as it gets tougher to wait and be patient. And have everyone carry everything for me, it's so aggravating to not be able to carry a cup of water (because I'm on crutches)! Another lesson I'm still learning, I guess - don't be so independent?
Well, that's a road I'm still traveling!
CP is still working in me. May my heart be open to more teaching... :D
